Personal Birthing Experience

I gave birth to my son Kaden on February 6, 2012 via c- section. I was in labor for three days and I was not dilating. I tried everything I could to have a natural birth. I was so excited to see my son and finally get to hold him. When I was in the hospital for so long and listening to doctors and seeing all the machines, my happiness was being replaced by fear! I kept thinking something is wrong or something will go wrong, I was very nervous and scared. My mom and my husband were with me throughout the time and they supported me and held my hand. Finally , the doctor said we can wait anymore we need to do a cesarean and it was set up for a few hours later.

Immediately I began to cry followed by my husband and my mom. I felt as if I had failed because I could not deliver my baby that I carried for nine months. I was so emotional and broken-down. The doctor came in and was confused as to what he was seeing with all the tears. He held my hand and told me some women can not even get pregnant so savor this feeling because you will be a mother soon. I began to think of every story you hear about adoption and miscarriages and  I smiled and said doctor your right and I began to relax. After my selfish moment was over, everything went absolutely smooth.

This sweet little boy let out the biggest cry and he made me know that everything was okay and that he had arrived! 

I choose to share my personal experience because I never felt so happy, excited and scared at the same time. To go through such an emotional time really puts your emotions in check. It showed me how connected I was to my child and how I feared that I would be a disappointment to him by not delivering him naturally.

Birth in Guyana,  South America

Guyana is the only English speaking country in South America and even though technology has improved drastically over the pass decades, most birth are occurring in homes. I should point out the statistics are affected by location and finances. Women are given their circumstance by birth themselves. It is only after marriage or migration that they may change their paths. Most families attempt to migrate to the United States or at least marry their daughters off to a wealthy family. 

I am very fortunate that I was able to give birth in New York because, I was already so scared and emotional unstable during my time. If I could not afford to have all the luxuries that I had during my time, I do not know how I would have felt if anything had gone wrong and the doctor could not explain anything to me. 

My mom actually gave birth to me and brother at home and she says to me all the time that the midwives are professionals and they know what they are doing. They prepare for everything. My brother and I were delivered safely and I am glad for that but I am still nervous to know most of the world is subjected to home births because they don't have access to all the technology that the other half of the world has to offer.